BREATHE & BELIEVE
The swim and paddle events at @thebaygames were amongst the toughest things I’ve ever had to do. Completely out of my comfort zone.
Event 1, a run-swim-run, should have been ok and despite hearing talk about people needing rescuing already, I convinced myself I had it. I didn’t need @davebarker_dbpt with me, I’d be ok. But I got to the waters edge and froze. Literally froze. It was like I was in a dream - I could see all those I had passed on the run now passing me, encouraging me, but passing me. I could hear myself going “wtf Kat, get in the water” but I could also hear “this is it Kat. We aren’t doing this today. We are out”. My entire body was ready to pull the plug. I panicked, I started to hyperventilate and went to take a backward step. That’s when @becsassine arrived. She yelled, passed me then turned, grabbed my wrist and yanked me waist deep “swim Kat”. I wouldn’t have done it. I literally would have pulled out of the entire comp a third of the way through event one. With Sass yelling from in front and @jeb020 yelling at me from behind I did the only thing I could - I swam. I did it. Those emotions are still there, so raw. But I did it.
By the time Event 2 came around I was beyond petrified. My body was packing it and it was going to be a true test. I paddled as if my life depended on it having only ever paddled once before (the previous day when I was “gently” coaxed into the water by Dave) and was grateful to have Jess beside me at the home stretch turn. But when I hit land, I knew I wasn’t getting wet again and my internal and external meltdown started. My back ached and my shoulder hurt terribly. Every squat hurt and every snatch made me want to cry. I didn’t (that’s a first for me). And I’m so bloody proud of what I did.
Will it be easier next time? I’m not sure. But will I do it again? Yes. 100%. Am I truly stronger than I realise? Well, let’s not get too carried away.
Put your mind to something. Accept the challenge. Breathe. And believe. #dbpt4life