Sometimes the things we want and love most are not right for us and that's okay. Sometimes we become blind with naivety, passion and desperately try to make things work that are out of our reach or detrimental to our health.
I remember around this time 10 years ago, I so badly wanted to be a Tattooist. The idea of being able to create for others and to learn to Tattoo made me feel worth something.
I was determined that this was my path to take. But I also was unstable and would make too many big leaps out of the frustration to progress and continue my career. I was sleeping rough in the studio and was suffering with severe mental health issues. This along with being bullied, threatened and fucked over by selfish 'friends', it took its toll.
My work and personal life became a mess. My relationships broke down. I began to destroy myself over mistakes... I had failed and I didn't want to get back up. People didn't care about me, they only wanted freebies. And my passion for creating really took a beating.
Over the 10 years I have reminisced about the good and bad times. One thing I know has changed is my lack of passion to create and share my work as I use too. A shame holds heavy over me, which is something I naturally carry as a survivor of abuse and trauma. But I do wish to be my true creative self again.
We aren't stuck to one medium, we can learn from our mistakes and we are ALOUD to be LOVED! YOUR MIND CAN NOT CREATE IF IT ISN'T CARED FOR <3.
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