Just because I walk with my head held high doesn’t mean I carry my hijab with ease.
I started wearing the hijab in sixth grade at the persistence of my father. I had nightmare after nightmare every time I thought about removing it. For real, sometimes days in a row! So I wore it. It wasn’t hard. Except for one incidence of having it pulled off my head in 8th grade, no one questioned or bothered me. I can say I was (and am) truly blessed.
Now however, it doesn’t seem that easy anymore. As I grow older, I realize that the hijab is a responsibility endowed upon me. When people look at me, the first and sometimes only thing they see is my hijab. And they make their assumptions about what type of a person I am without even saying a word to me. And unfortunately, many of these people are quick to judge based on what is shown to them on TV.
I’ve recently started noticing another thing. I’m sometimes nicer to strangers not just because I’m a nice person, but because I know they will associate me with my religion. As a hijabi, I am a silent representative of my religion. I want my actions to speak for themselves. I am kind because I want others to see that my religion teaches kindness.
There are times when my patience is tested, and I have to think before replying or giving an answer. Is life easier for Muslim women who don’t wear the hijab? I wouldn’t know. I don’t know if they they have repercussions about what to say in certain situations due to our religion.
I know the hijab is not limiting my speech as a woman and I am allowed to say whatever I wish. But this has been my personal experience. Maybe I’m just a weird soul who overthinks and should just say it as is 😁
If you’re a Muslim woman, regardless of whether or not you wear the hijab, how has Islam Influenced your life around others?